Protected: Not a great place
January 26th, 2012 9:33 pm | amanda
Current Mood:
Depressed
Protected: In a word
January 1st, 2012 10:42 pm | amanda
Current Mood:
Infuriated
I know I haven’t written in awhile.
December 28th, 2011 10:28 pm | amanda
Current Mood:
Pissed
But today I had an experience that is literally bursting out of me. I am so angry I can’t even describe it correctly.
I called to make an appointment for my usual yearly physical to my doctor, and got THE rudest treatment I’ve ever had from anyone in my life over the phone from his nurse. She was SUCH a b-face.
They forced me to make 2 appointments for my physical, which was the first I was ever hearing of his “policy” to split the yearly appointment into one for the PAP and the other appointment for the rest.
I don’t have a huge amount of expendable time to devote running to the doctor TWICE for one issue.
She absolutely refused to let me book for my fasting blood sugar the same day as my PAP. She insisted it was policy that it be on a different day.
I asked her if this was a new policy as it was the first time I was hearing of it, and she said no, it had been like that always in the 2+ years she had been working there.
By the time I got off the phone after listening to her SNOT ASS ATTITUDE and BITCHY I’M BETTER THAN YOU tone, I was *FUMING*.
Literally fuming. Generally I’m fairly easy going, and it takes a lot to rile me. Yes there are things that get me angry right quick, driving is usually one of them, but this left me literally furious.
It did not take me long to look up the number to call to find out if any doctors in my area were accepting new patients. I got a number to a place that is easier to get to (once I mapped it) and found it’s in the same building as the GYN I’d been previously referred to. So my information was on file already.
The woman I spoke with was nothing but pleasant, helpful and the total and complete opposite of the women who work at the dr’s office where I am no longer going to be going.
I am so angry. They are ALWAYS so rude, but it was never like that before. There are 3 of them, and they are 3 of the most sour people who sit behind a desk I’ve ever met.
I’m never going back and I’m alright with that.
I’m finding a paediatrician as well, which will likely be in the same building as my new doctor, and hope that it can get taken care of before April which is her 18 month check up.
The doctor I was going to was relatively nice. But NEVER again will I step foot in that building with those women working there.
So that happened.
How was your day? ;)
Filed under health | Comments (4)Things are pretty decent :)
September 4th, 2011 10:05 am | amanda
Current Mood:
Accomplished
So, I had several interviews, and several job offers and that was so awesome. I had nothing to worry about. The first job I interviewed for, was offered and agreed to was with Chapters. It’s pretty fun! But the pay/hours are not great. So I got a second job. Full time, decent pay and fairly set schedule. :D It makes me feel great that I’m going to be doing my part.
So I start the second job on the 12th, and will have to leave Chapters, which sucks cuz discount! But I’d never be home if I stayed there and that wouldn’t be good at all.
The girl has a cold at current and sleep is sucky as a result, so I’m tired, but okay.
Autumn has arrived and will be official in a few weeks. Shortly after that the girl will be 1 year old! O_O That’s just crazy talk. ;)
At any rate, no I haven’t fallen off the face of the earth, I’m just busy adjusting to life with a job or 2… :) More again at a later date, lol!
Filed under baby, home, random | Comment (0)Job Hunting…
July 30th, 2011 8:52 am | amanda
Current Mood:
Busy
Stressful. Upsetting and worry filled.
I wish I didn’t have to go through this right now.
I wish I had a job to return to when Mat Leave is over in 2 weeks.
*sigh*
Scary scary scary.
Although so far, 1 interview down and another scheduled for Tuesday so I’m hopeful. But I’m still stressed…
Keeping my positive hat on as best I can :)
Wish me luck!
Filed under random | Comments (4)I just need to complain
June 20th, 2011 7:35 am | amanda
Current Mood:
Sick
This will be TMI about my cold and mucous. You have been warned, skip if you are bothered by such things…
So I got a cold. Another one. 4th one since having the baby. I don’t know why. I’ve never been sick this often before. I don’t know what’s wrong with me or if my immunity is screwed up or what.
This cold started the typical way, sore-ish throat and that scratchy feeling behind the eyes last Monday.Then morphed into runny nose with a really bad sore throat, with a low grade fever, just between 99-100F for a day and a half. Then came the sinus pressure and head pain. Then turned into a horrible wet sticky cough with plugged sinuses.
NOW I have snot escaping my tear ducts in my left eye since yesterday afternoon and I’m just so fed up of being sick and tired… I hate this. My eye is half swollen shut and hurts like hell. I have slept like ass for the past two days because of all the coughing.
I just needed to complain somewhere about how shitty I feel right now and I don’t want to feel shitty anymore. I don’t know why I keep getting sick and I’m so SICK of it! I want to be better soooooon! Hell, I want to be better NOW! :)
Filed under health | Comments (4)Upset and frustrated
May 28th, 2011 9:55 am | amanda
Current Mood:
Anxious
Ever have a situation in which you were just so upset and frustrated you didn’t even know what to do with yourself?
I have one of those right now, and I truly have no idea what the hell to do.
On one hand I want to figure out what to do to make it work and make it all better.
On the other, I just want to pack it in and call it done.
Either way it’s frustrating.
I just want everyone to get along and be happy, and it seems like that lately is an impossible wish :/
Filed under spirit | Comment (0)Worry…
May 10th, 2011 9:08 am | amanda
Current Mood:
Worried
I worry a lot. I guess that’s typical. But really, many of my days are consumed with worry. Even more so now since the baby.
I worry about money. This is a BIG one for me. I worry about health, mine and his and hers, and even my mom’s. I worry about food. I worry about my weight. I worry about the weather… Really. I just worry.
I try not to. I try really hard to just let go and know that the things I need will somehow come to me. But that is so hard. So so hard.
I worry a LOT about what will happen after my maternity leave is over. Do I find a new job? Do I attempt to go back to my old place of employment? (Though most definitely at a different store.) Do I try to work at home?
I wouldn’t mind trying to work at home. I really just want the answers to come without a lot of thought on my part. That’s very silly of me, I know. But sometimes I’d like the solution to present itself without a whole other set of worries on my part.
I really want to be a good mom, and that is, I think, my biggest worry. Am I a good mom? Will I be a good mom? How do I know I’m being a good mom? What will life look like in a year, 2 years, 5 years, 10…
To many thoughts, my brain hurts. :(
And sunshine, please come back. The grey cloudy isn’t helping me at all.
On the positive: My little girl is cute and I’m lucky as hell to have her :)
Filed under spirit | Comment (0)How did I do it before?
April 28th, 2011 9:55 am | amanda
Current Mood:
Content
I read posts back in my history here, and in my private archives, and I wonder how did I do it? I mean seriously. I avoided medicine for so long, but I really was struggling that whole time. Emotionally, mentally… I struggled. I try to be a good person, and I try to maintain a positive attitude, but throughout this ride of first school, then work, then pregnancy, I’ve discovered that sometimes that’s just not enough.
I’m properly looking after myself now. And if I have to be on this medicine for the rest of my life to stay stable, and normal, then so be it. There isn’t much I can do about it at. I was a mess before. Sure I could function, but the thoughts that preyed on my mind on a daily basis were unpleasant. The money I spent on things I so did not need was a lot. I can see now exactly where I was trying to just cope with the things that I was feeling, and couldn’t. I would try to make myself feel better and it never did. I’m still working through massive amounts of body lotion and hand cream of all things that I just kept buying because I was hoping to feel normal, but never did.
I’m okay now. I’m great in fact. I’ve never felt better. And I don’t spend money at all the way I used to. Which is good, because I can’t now with the expenses of our new life taking precedence. It’s all good as they say. I’m adjusting, and enjoying and finally feeling normal. Well a new normal :)
Grateful for life blessings.
Filed under health, spirit | Comments (2)So I have opened my journal
April 24th, 2011 10:30 am | amanda
Current Mood: Busy
It’s not overly used, but here it is.
Also, I’ve password protected the baby blog, if you would like access email me :)
Otherwise visit http://eastpath.blogspot.com for baby related ruminations that are public oriented! <3
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